I have had really good people in my life.
Like the best people.
They are kind, and sassy, and sarcastic, and thoughtful, and genuine.
And unfortunately, I have to use the word 'had' to describe our friendship. In moving away to school I've realized how difficult it is to keep in contact with close friends. Sure, we say that we'll talk, and for the first months we do, but then it becomes like a chore. And I don't want any of my friendships to become a chore.
The people that I have left impacted my greatly. They created who I am today, and who I will try to be tomorrow. Losing their daily influence in my life has created an ache in my heart that I can physically feel.
That's not to say that I haven't met new, absolutely wonderful people, who are slowly becoming my closest friends.
It's just saying that sometimes, as much as I know I need to appreciate the current moment, I miss the past. I miss the ease of being around friends who I have known for years, and who already accept my quirks. I miss the inside jokes, and not feeling like I have to prove myself. I miss my best friends.
But then I am so grateful that they are away from me, because that means other people get to experience them, and appreciate them for the gems they are. They're growing, and learning, and loving, just like I am. They are becoming better versions of themselves. So really, all I can do is acknowledge that I miss them, and to honor them by living every day like they would want me to.
They will always be close in my heart, even if we don't talk every day. They will always be a part of my story, even as the chapter is turning.
They are my home.
With love,
MG
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